It’s Day 13 already. – Living Gratitude.
Today I would like to share a personal story about gratitude.
Until about 2 years ago I don’t think I knew what gratitude really was and didn’t pay much attention to it consciously. Then my life changed dramatically. In one day I lost my husband (through separation – we are back together today, but that’s another story), the house that was our home (moving out took longer, but we had to go), my job that was in my husbands company and with that my income. I was left with 6 animals to care for and myself in a shocked and sick condition.
In the following months I went through a lot of grief, physical and emotional pain, fear. For months I had panic attacks. But the universe also send me a whole regimen of people to help. On days when I couldn’t see or feel anything but pain and grief, I started doing an exercise I had read in ‘I don’t know which’ angel or spiritual book. Finding things that I was grateful for every evening. I started doing that every night when I went to bed. And I always always always found things and beings like my animals that I was grateful for. Always. This exercise slowly but steadily and deeply changed my life and my awareness.
Just before I was writing this I had no idea what I would write today. And then I remembered randomly meeting 2 friends a few hours ago when I was shopping. I felt a bit off and too much in my head today. And I realised that I was really grateful to have met them. They took me out of my head and into this present moment with them. I also thanked the universe as there are no coincidences. And that reminded me of this exercise. Which is no coincidence either.
So, if you want to change your outlook on life from inside, I recommend you do this exercise. There’s so much to be grateful for. One of the things I’m most grateful for is that I got to know myself and learned to take care of myself during that time. The other thing is that my husband and I have found each other again. Yes,it’s possible. No, I wouldn’t say it was easy. But love never dies. You just have to dig deep sometimes and pull away everything that’s not needed anymore and didn’t belong to you in the first place.
Be grateful for being here. Be grateful for this life. Yes, you can choose another one. But this is unique.